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How to deal when someone say something bad about you?

Upon have many exreiences in my life about having somebody commenting about you being you, and in their eyes, I will never be good enough. I should be able to receive the criticism by now, but like all human I am still struggle by it. Especially when it come from someone close or some one who all day spend critiquing your every move. Today is another they do that to me. I felt so hurt, I felt so annoys by the yapping they gave me. But I promise myself that I will be a good carbon cold~ And I will with stand these pressuring that keep pushing me. I would say today is only half way success.  I know now I can never be good enough for mother or any one around me. Bit everytime the critics come in, I feel like a monster breathing fire, I feel like AGAIN YOU SAY THIS and Nid picking my every move can't I just b me , be myself Bitchhhhhhh I hate you. Lol~ Upon this contemplating tonight I came across this article, I think it is very helpful to those who still practicing taking criticism. I would say it is still super difficult for me to  deal with all yapping from other. I hate it. I promise one day I will earn my rights to the world ~ that they I won't need them ~ I won't need to stand or sit there to listening to all these ppl bitching about me. If you hate what I do, I will just gonna disappear from your life bitch~ can't wait till I can be diamond. I will fly away ~ away from these ppl who only tie to critiquing about other but never look at them self ... Enjoy the article below peeps, hope it will help you like it help mine xxx

How to Deal with Criticism Well: 25 Reasons to Embrace It

  “Criticism is something you can easily avoid by saying nothing, doing nothing, and being nothing.” ~Aristotle

At the end of the day, when I feel completely exhausted, it often has nothing to do with all the things I’ve done.
It’s not a consequence of juggling multiple responsibilities and projects. It’s not my body’s way of punishing me for becoming a late-life jogger after a period of laziness. It’s not even about getting too little sleep.

I dreamt of a serial killer~ I feel numb

I feel numb right now~ he the aqua came back into my life to test me. I got caught up again. And now the Aqua man ignore me again. I feel like a totally stupid girl. Though he reminded me why I love him dearly... But suddenly after a long silent, it  made me realise again that love is just equal hurt and pain too. I have decided not to love any man so much anymore (I will try my best) ~ coz love passionate love ... also come with a price, if I don't love too much maybe my heart will not feel this zombie like.  



This morning when I woke up after the dream about a serial killer. I dreamt that me and some friends was kidnaps by a serial killer...it was so real and scary. In the end I remember there is this girl with her red hair she came in and saved us. Saved me from this scary killer...she twist her body and twisted off this serial killer head. I woke up after he died. 

The meaning of my dream of a killer ... Serial Kiler...

"To see a killer in your dream suggests that an essential aspect of your emotions have been cut off. You feel that you are losing your identity and your individuality. Alternatively, this dream may represent purification and the healing process. You are standing up for yourself and putting a dramatic end to something."
Source:http://dreammoods.com

"To dream about a serial killer foretells sadness caused by the misdeeds of others. If you dream that the killer spares your life, you are hopeful that an enemy or rival will stop working against you in real life. Be careful about relying on hopes, however!" 
Source:http://www.edreaminterpretation.com



Back in love with him ...

Wish tonight I could sleep but all I think about is this Aquarius man of mind. My life still not sort out yet but some how I feel full of good hopes and dreams. I feel like I am happy, happy to love him even once upon a time in my life time.


Love him like Gold
Love long like Wine
Love forever like the never ending stretch of the night sky
Love him is that all
Love is that why 
Love him I will do 
This made me happy like a new born
Heart you always my Aqua blue heart boy x